Ok so I’m at church yesterday and I over hear one of our pre-teen ladies talking about an incident that had just occurred upstairs. I kinda already knew what she was talking about because I walked out of the church and seen the other young lady upset. Anywhoo I’m downstairs at the table racking up on my holiday special DVD’s and CD’s and I hear this young lady talking about the incident. Normally I would just ignore it and keep it pushing but lately God has been bothering me about staying silent So Instantly I just kinda snapped out not meaning to snap but it came out that way, The young lady automatically looked up and was shocked anyone said anything secondly she just stood there stuttering and not know what to say. I apologized for seeming like I was coming at her but I just refuse to see another generation of FULLY GOSSIPING SAINTS OMG that drives me up the wall. Well getting back to the story the young lady proceeds to tell me that the story was about her so it wasn’t gossip. Gossip is talking about someone whether they are present or not with bad intentions. Also within yesterday a young lady I don’t particularly care for was up assisting with praise in worship and there are a few young people who openly don’t care for the girl either one who is like my little sister turned to me and began to comment negatively about the young lady at first I laughed and began to say something as well but I felt an instant conviction so I began also speak to her about gossiping etc. The funny this is it’s not just yesterday that it started it’s been a few months now I have been feeling the burden of certain things weighing me down not in a bag way but in a way that is telling me to push past self and dive deep into ministry. I don’t know it’s like one day it just hit me that growing up we had tons of church mothers evangelist and missionaries surrounding us praying with and for us even up until now. Yet I’m not to sure that the same will happen for my child’s generation or even the one behind them I often feel like with the age of parents getting lower and the seasoned saints “going to sleep” lately we will be the missionaries church mothers youth ministers or even just sisters in the church that they look up to and come to for advice or maybe even just watch to guide their own life after. These things scare me to pieces almost to the point that I want to say ok lord rapture us before that happens but the fact of the matter is it has already began to happen some girl or guy is looking up to me now at church and sadly I can’t erase previous visions of me in their eyes but I can continue to walk forward in God’s will for my life. So in this season of my life I have decided that I will no longer run nor will I turn away for what God has for me this season or how he wants to work through me in this season.
But you should keep a clear mind in every situation. Don’t be afraid of suffering for the Lord. Work at telling others the Good News, and fully carry out the ministry God has given you. (2 timothy 4:5) (NLT)