And that means killing off everything connected with that way of death: sexual promiscuity, impurity, lust, doing whatever you feel like whenever you feel like it, and grabbing whatever attracts your fancy. That’s a life shaped by things and feelings instead of by God. It’s because of this kind of thing that God is about to explode in anger. It wasn’t long ago that you were doing all that stuff and not knowing any better. But you know better now, so make sure it’s all gone for good: bad temper, irritability, meanness, profanity, dirty talk. – Colossians 5-8 (MSG)
Today was quite n interesting New Year Day. Well honestly it was pretty regular and plain to be honest until I got home and had the best laugh ever! You ever have one of those like “aha moments” that cause you to laugh because you didn’t see what was coming or even realize the true meaning or reasoning but you already knew that’s how God had it worked out? So all that said aside today I went to log on my Facebook and for some reason I couldn’t get on now for the past year I have known my password because my password was the first time me and my “friend” were sexually intimate I know it’s weird but it’s the only date I knew nobody would know and it was easy to remember because I was so hell-bent over him *sighs* sad but true. Now I know you may be thinking well whats so funny about that right? Continue reading
In previous writing’s I have said stated a ton of reasons I am single. One of the main reason being “getting myself together” Organization is one of the BIGGEST reasons. The fact that this blog has sat in my draft box going on almost 2 months is a clear reason as to why I just Gotsta Do Betta! (country preacher man’s voice). The fact that I am designing tee shirts making texas toast and my mind is all over the place is clearly a sign that I need to bring my mind in and get my life! Continue reading
So the other day I was really overwhelmed in thinking about all I had going on and was almost convinced things couldn’t get any worst or even as if I was even ready to die (not literally) but just ready to mentally check out then I had a daydream it may seem weird or out of tv style but it really made me stop think appreciate life and get excited about my life and all God has planned for it.
So the other my Past Present & Future had a convo here’s how it went:
My Present : Well I feel like this burden has gotten too heavy. I lost the man I really wanted to be with I understand I’ve lied to myself when I say I didn’t or that it doesn’t bother me to sit in the same building as him and his present girlfriend 2-4 times a week. I cry many nights behind this and this emotional pain is beginning to take a toll on my physical and mental body. I am thankful for all God has done and is doing I understand in order to get through I have to go through but at this point I feel spiritually dead and don’t even think it’s worth it anymore what is left to do? Ministry isn’t even fulfilling any more I used to run to be at every event and my hands would be free whenever need now I can barely get up enough of a press to make it out to Sunday services.
My Past: *shakes head while looking at my foolish present self* Did not God carry you through past heartbreak? Did he not warn you that was NOT for you? HAs he not kept you? We have survived molestation homelessness since age 16. You have survived school maintained college credits. Never have you gone poor Never have you or your child gone totally without. Is your faith not still overflowing from these thing that he has done. Remember when you were on the brink of losing your mind and your were depressed and didn’t even know it did he not keep you. What is wrong with you life has thrown many things your way deeper and harder than this. Look where God has brought you from. Don’t you proclaim to be Holy Ghost filled? Doesnt the bible declare he will bring all thing back to your remembrance. Let what he has done in the past be a constant reminder to keep you.
My Future: You don’t know what greatness I hold if you would only walk in God’s will let go of the mess your presently going through which will soon be your past and serve as a stepping stone and a reminder of what the lord can do. Don’t get stuck in your present. I can’t wait until I’m your present and your present will soon be a thing of the pass if only you would press!
It made me chuckle but it also made me pray and keep on pushing! Purity Kinkz & Bowz <3